A Single Moment in Time

It's hard to remember how to breathe sometimes. I find myself in a room that's slowly burning down around me and I can't even think of escape because the only thing I want is to get in that desperate breath. I'm not sitting here trying to describe what a panic attack feels like. What I'm trying to explain is what it feels like to be trapped. Trapped in expectations that other people have for you, but maybe even worse trapped in expectations you have for yourself.
I can't remember a time when I wasn't weighed down. But I know I've glimpsed what it feels like to break the chains. There's tiny moments that seem to transcend the mundane but the situations themselves could be just that. In fact, they often are the most boring experiences when viewed from outside. A cigarette and silence between two friends. No expectations, no needs, nothing that needs to be expressed. Or maybe when you hear a song but the lyrics fade away and all you hear is the beat of your heart sync with the beat of the song.
It's not a feeling, it's a moment. A single moment in time that you can never remember and you can't describe; not really. But each moment leaves a scar and a memory that changes you forever.